ItsMariah_Bitch
Sometimes
I wonder
What you
Would
Say to
Me
If your
Tongue
Could not
Bear
A lie;
Would you
Admit
That I was
Just a
Way
For you
To kill
Time until
She finally
Wanted
You?
Would you
Say it
All
Meant nothing
Because I
Was
Never the
One?
Or would
You say that
At one
Time you
Did love
Me but
It’s
Gone now and
It’s never
Coming
Back?
The sad
Thing is
That
Even though
All
Of these
Truths
Would destroy
Me
From
The inside
Out,
They would
Do far
Less damage
Than you
Making
Me wait
On something
You
Know
Will
Never
Happen
bnc//Know I need you more (via youwillunderstand)
Sometimes
I wonder
What you
Would
Say to
Me
If your
Tongue
Could not
Bear
A lie;
Would you
Admit
That I was
Just a
Way
For you
To kill
Time until
She finally
Wanted
You?
Would you
Say it
All
Meant nothing
Because I
Was
Never the
One?
Or would
You say that
At one
Time you
Did love
Me but
It’s
Gone now and
It’s never
Coming
Back?
The sad
Thing is
That
Even though
All
Of these
Truths
Would destroy
Me
From
The inside
Out,
They would
Do far
Less damage
Than you
Making
Me wait
On something
You
Know
Will
Never
Happen
bnc//Know I need you more (via youwillunderstand)
stoplookingatmyurlfreaks:

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tommiebrowniest:

Today I took a bath. I soaked in the memory of you, in my guilt & shame, in all the lives I’ve lived & places I’ve been that I didnt belong. Then I scrubbed my skin until it burned.

& Then I watched you & me go down the drain.

My tea was Zen.
& So am I.

stoplookingatmyurlfreaks:

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-You’re gonna meet a boy who will light a fire in your heart and watch you burn down to the ground, and you’re gonna be so busy loving him that you forget to love yourself. He’ll suck on your teeth like they’re candies, press his lips into your skin as though you’re something to eat, and I know how badly you want to feel wanted but you can’t let him devour you, because if you get lost inside of him, baby, I don’t think you’ll ever come back out.
-You’re gonna meet a boy who tells you that you’re beautiful even though you’ve just been crying and your hands are still shaking and you’re smoking a cigarette that makes you smell of sadness and heartbreak, and you’re gonna tell yourself he’s too good for you, but I promise you, he’s not. When he leans in to kiss you, your breath is gonna hitch and you won’t be able to close your eyes, and it’s gonna feel like going home to a place you never even knew existed, but you can’t let yourself get too comfortable.
-You’re gonna meet a boy who breaks your heart over and over and over again, and you’re gonna tell yourself that you love him even though he makes you cry more often than he makes you smile, and you need to get the hell out of there as soon as you can. When you look into his eyes are see silence and death, it’s not poetic, baby. It’s dangerous.
-You’re gonna meet a boy. In fact, you’re gonna meet a lot of them, and they’re all gonna hurt you and only some of them will bother to put you back together. Make sure you learn how to tell the difference.
I’m still working on it (via u-u-tf)